American Girl

My Doctor started weaning me off of Effexor 2 weeks ago (so I can try Lexapro) The transition wasn't nearly as bad as I was afraid it would be but the last 4 hours I have been having tons of "brain zaps" or "brain shivers" every couple of minutes. It doesn't hurt it just feels weird. It's very unnerving. I don't like it at all. I'm really hoping this doesn't last long. 
 

Excruciating week. My dad's surgery went well the whole post-operation not so much. Finally being released to rehab facility today.  This is so hard. 

Start praying, sacrificing goats/sheep/virgins, sending light, good vibrations...whatever. The VA disability case SHOULD be decided by Friday. Thank You

Start praying, sacrificing goats/sheep/virgins, sending light, good vibrations...whatever. The VA disability case SHOULD be decided by Friday. Thank You

This song. 🌜
 

The community service for Temple Emanuel was about as much of a madhouse as one would expect.  The historic building seats 180 people.  Y'all, we had people lining the side aisles, standing 2 to 4 deep in the back, and spilling out onto the sidewalk.  Something like 220 - 250 people in and around that building.  
My little dragons didn't handle the original news of the bomb plot well.  They reacted similarly to when I told them their abba wasn't going to be coming home - the same sense of having their security and safety shaken but despite a week of unrest, when we got there tonight, they handled themselves really well.  Girl dragons sat in the front row with Hebrew School friends.  Boy dragon sat by me.  By the time we got to the aleinu (it's not enough to pray, you have to go out and do, as our rabbi puts it) boy dragon was leaning on my arm talking about when Mr Oy died.  It's the most open he's gotten with his feelings in 10 months of being prodded and prompted to talk.
I invited Neptune to attend with me.  He said he would have attended even if I hadn't asked, but that it meant a lot that I asked him.  It's always strange to notice "then and now" moments . . . Mr Oy did not do well with crowds (military background and all).  I also don't do well with crowds and I'm pretty sensitive to anxiety in people I'm emotionally close to so being with Mr Oy in a crowd was . . . difficult, let's say.  His anxiety would provoke mine, my anxiety would provoke his, and before either of us knew it, we were both jittery, dizzy, and feeling like we needed an escape plan.  It was unpleasant.  But Neptune is really calm and laid back and being with him, in that ridiculously over filled space, felt safe and ok.

Does anyone else get super excited to have a brand new shiny vacuum? 'Cause I do!

Got pickpocketed tonight. Happy Friday!

Cocodamol (tylenol 3, I think, for those in the US) is my friend this evening.   Sore wrist, sore ankles, sore feet and sore knees.  All soft tissue aches.

The new therapist is happening in a few hours.
Oh boy.