The last few nights I've been staying up late. I just haven't felt like going to bed at a reasonable hour. Instead, I stay up listening to music loudly in my headphones. I spent a fair amount of time last night listening to Elliott Smith and reading old blog entries from a Xanga account I had in 2002 (and beyond.) It's so bizarre to read it. I've read old journals off an on over the years but I rarely revisit my old Xanga. I don't remember writing in it much, but apparently I did. I only managed to read December 2002 last night. In some ways, it seems like yesterday. In others...it's like it didn't happen at all.

Most of my blogs are just me rambling on about day to day things. In one entry, I talked about going to see the movie "Maid in Manhattan" and shopping with friends. We drove from our college town to a bigger city nearby. I don't really remember this at all. It's one of those things that if I hadn't blogged it, it would have been lost forever. Obviously it's not something important I need to remember. But it bothers me that I clearly have forgotten so much over the years (I touched on this in a previous post here and I'm sure it will get mentioned often.)

A lot of the entries....as I read them...it's like they were written by someone else. It's a strange feeling. The "voice" just doesn't seem like mine. Maybe it's just because my typing style has changed. Or maybe it's because I've changed.

It's just been really interesting reading through it all. I think I'll keep reading over the next few days or so to see if I come across anything worth sharing. Doubtful though. The stuff I was reading yesterday was a lot of nonsense about a guy I liked at the time. Though I guess to me it's sort of interesting to read it now, in 2015, knowing how it all turned out with him. I'm also looking forward to coming across the entries from around the time I met my husband.

Anyway...I don't know where I was going with any of this tonight. Just felt like rambling.

And here's some Elliott Smith for the heck of it....

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=sJthA4l8S5U