On 10/14/2021 at 10:28 AM, 47of74 said:
We have a trifecta. Florida Man. Meth. Imaginary girlfriend.
I thought about if there was a possibility that Matthew really thought Emma exists in some kind of parallel universe that he could only visit when on meth, which would be sad.
Then, I thought the "I can only see my girlfriend when on meth" seems to indicate that Matthew knows there is no Emma, and is hoping to use that excuse as a ploy for sympathy. So I originally gave this story a laughing emoji.
But what if Matthew really thinks Emma is real, but also knows that no one else believes in her? Apparently, he never called her imaginary, he just said that he could only see her when he "was tripping".
But what if it's true? Emma exists in this other place, and he can only see her by taking a drug that is destined to fry his brain poison his body with death as the eventual outcome? Does she understand this? Why isn't she encouraging Matthew to stop taking meth and find a woman on his own realm? It's a well-known trope, the story of lovers kept apart by astronomical forces, but unless one can find a way to cross over the story always ends in sadness. Matthew seems ready to kill himself to see you, Emma. Why don't you cut him loose and refuse to see him? It's the best thing for both of you. Or are you so selfish that you'll bask in the attention of a man willing to kill himself for a few hours in your presence, with no chance of a lasting relationship?
Damn. Although I think Emma is a figment of Matthews imagination, maybe he believes she real in some aspect. Someone who loves him best when he's on meth, when everyone else would like him to clean up.
Matthew, this is the power of drugs. You like meth so much you've invented a reason to keep taking it. Whether you really see Emma when you're tripping, or you make up your time with her after you've come down, this isn't healthy. I'm sorry for you, Matthew, because this isn't going to end well.
Now I have to replace my laughing emoji with a sad one.