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BlackberryGirl

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I just need someplace to vent about a few things, mostly my health and stress. 

Long story short, I’m 65, in 2002 I developed cardiomyopathy and was very sick. At the time I was told life expectancy was about 3 years.  Well here I still am. Two years ago, on my birthday, I had a health crisis and ended up with a pacemaker. The past month or so, I have just felt shitty.  My long time doctor 25 years, retired. Her partner, who I like , we continue my care, but it isn’t the same. Last few days I have been very anxious (unusual for me) and basically convinced I am dying. I am calling for an appointment tomorrow. I can’t put my finger on it, its just this weird dread feeling.  

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Night ninjas

Whoa!  Last night was weird as hell. At some point within minutes of me falling asleep, Mark took my hand and kissed it, in his sleep, and I went through the ceiling. I was startled awake and somehow thought a heyena had licked my arm.  Then a couple hours later I surfaced to see a ninja in full black costume jump over the bed and crouch by the window.  Fuck. Obviously I didn't go back to sleep. I had taken tramadol twice yesterday for the migraine and arthritis. I generally average 2 tramadol every 6 months or so..and its the lowest dose. Apparently some lucky people have halucinations as a side effect to tramadol.  I need some kind  of pain relief. Codiene is absolutely out.  At least the headache is gone and I feel generally better. Stil need to make dr Appointment, they are closed today, I'll call tomorrow. 

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Craptastic week or so

Adding to the stuff I said in the intro, I have had a migraine for almost 72 hours. Aleve didn’t help, I took tramodol, and that sort of helped a little. I can’t take anything with codiene, anaphylaxis...tramodol makes me nauseated and shakey. Since I can’t vomit, i have dry heaves throughout the day.  I don’ get migraines much anymore, since menopause, but when I do ... fml. Also I am generally a positive upbeat person, not these last few days. AND I can’ t sleeep worth shit. 

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