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So my dog had to be euthanized last week after cancer advanced. The dog was quite old and suffering but I still feel like shit for agreeing to the procedure. I feel like he trusted me and I betrayed him and it's really eating me up inside. Logically I know it was the right call - especially after seeing the x-rays. We tried the drugs the vet recommended to keep him comfortable and they weren't working. At the same time, my emotions are a mess and I am overwhelmed with grief. I'm an atheist - I don't believe in heaven, souls, etc., so it means that his awesome self was just snuffed out and is completely gone. (Though hope springs eternal that there's something we don't know about physics, the universe, etc., and maybe he's still floating around out there somewhere - just typing that really shows what a mess I am right now.) And with him gone, the world seems a lot less magical. I just needed to vent. Think I'm going to get caught up on stuff for work as a distraction.
https://www.yahoo.com/beauty/dad-marries-terminally-ill-daughter-143702269.html This article caught my eye and turned my stomach. Can't do much background footwork at the moment... but it felt very FJ discussable... 16 months old!!! If she were 6 and wedding obsessed as some little ones are, I'd feel better about this. But this feels so.... fundieicky