Person: How are you doing today, Jinder?
What I wanted to say: Currently resisting the urge to jump off a cliff (non-fatally, of course) because my anxiety prevents me from functioning like a normal human being. I'm the most unproductive person and feel like I'm failing all my classes because I'm bad at writing and I'm a bad stage manager. Also , I've gained 8 pounds and can't focus on anything. I get so scared of failing that I procrastinate and then panic. I'm convinced I'm going to have a meltdown and not turn in my papers on time like I do every semester despite taking time off from college to fix myself. I feel really guilty about worrying my parents constantly 'cause of my problems and either spend all my mental energy avoiding my problems, panicking or feeling really lonely? And honestly, there's no reason for me to have all these issues because a lot of people I know have it worse. I don't know why I can't deal with life. Questioning whether I'm just one of those people who's destined to be a failure and I think I'm going to die alone. Also convinced that I'm going bald and will develop early onset diabetes due to all the sugar I've been stress-eating.
What I actually said: Fine, and you?