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Because I don't opine nearly enough elsewhere.  Actually this is a weird little repository for things that amuse me...which don't always amuse other people but I'm okay with that.

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I'm FINE...I just need a pastor and a time machine...apparently

Exposition:  I've had a very rough year and I've got some very bad patterns when it comes to men and I thought a little professional help to get some tools so I can stop falling on emotional landmines of my own design might be a good idea.   So I asked the p-doc I see once every 3 months for my ADHD scripts  for a referral to a therapist. I've been going to her for ~4 years - 15 min appointment, rarely in there more than 5 unless she's particularly chatty about her life. Even as it was

HerNameIsBuffy

HerNameIsBuffy

Last one...for now

This is my approach today...I'm feeling it... And how will I look doing it? And why? also... And if people (one person) doesn't appreciate my efforts perhaps he should know that... what should happen as the result of my epic courage? Why should this happen? If it doesn't happen?   And why not just go through with your faux engagement to @Destiny ? @clueliss was totally right, my brain was getting dangerously pintresty and versio

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HerNameIsBuffy

I need some good thoughts sent my way...

I need you guys to be with me in spirit today...I'm about to do the riskiest thing I've ever done (and I've had sex on a second floor window ledge, so that's saying something)...just wish me luck that I can handle the repercussions, whatever they might be. But... Even though... which it totally could.  But... and I need to be free from the torture of what ifs...my brain will stay itchy until it's resolved and this seems less risky that opening up my skull to pour cala

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HerNameIsBuffy

Catching up - kinda

So I've not been around due to dealing with real life and so after a few minutes of trying to catch up... Anna makes my life choices look great.  She's as selfish and stupid as he is. JInger has knees...who knew? Is it too soon to hope this is the finale of the shitshow known as poopistan.  Fwiw based on nothing I'd bet real money against any of the anti-poop people suddenly developing a moral compass but as long as they're going to stfu who cares what the catalyst was. I'm n

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HerNameIsBuffy

Stages of life...

Am I the first one to tag a post drunk sex?  Hope so. So I've worked through the grieving and the guilt, logistics are moving as expected...I'm now entering the vodka and men phase of my healing.   Tbh the vodka isn't necessary.   So how does this work?   Have men changed since I've been out of the game?  Can I assume all of the equipment is still in the same general area as I remember?  Same triggers activate the usual launch sequence? You should be able to place and order f

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HerNameIsBuffy

Life recap

Just checking in.  Have been crazy busy for the last month or so.  Doing what? (Asks no one...) working long hours on the biggest project of my career. dealing with the logistics of my divorce including now having to pump my own gas, which is ridiculous. keeping a low profile so until I'm capable of communicating without bleeding my barely contained messy psyche over even innocuous comments.  (You're welcome) coming to grips with my full blown Cinderella complex which

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HerNameIsBuffy

I hate finding cute things I can't do...

I was just using the books to visualize levels but I kind of love this.  Old books and some of my favorite tiaras... But I'd never be able to sleep nights if I stored books improperly so alas only temporary.  Oh and  apparently the only maker of tiara displays and plinths for the home are in the U.K. and don't ship to the US.  That's some discriminatory shit right there.  

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In funnier news...

So in my desperate need for shiny distractions I went digging through the wayback machine and found some remnants of my first website.  Built it, with a great partner, from scratch and had a forum, chat, AOL Buddy Icons and everything!  This was 2001-2004.   If ive said it once I've said it a million times - I wouldn't be @Curious for anything.  Being the owner is hard.  And as often as I've said that I've made it known I'm much better being @Destiny 's sidekick because I'm a lot less dilig

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Divorce - - not just a Tammy Wynette song

There won't be anything juicy to blog because he's a good person and we all know I'm delightful...not everything is forever.  He's fine, I'm fine and once the process is over I can get on with the business of living with the shame of my second failure at this marriage thing.    

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HerNameIsBuffy

$50 my ass

I read an article today that the average cost of Thanksgiving to feed 10 people is just over $50.  In what universe? Here's my list of non-negotiable stuff or there is no holiday.  Granted some stuff I already have but in my quest to have one freaking holiday where I don't need to send someone to the store I make the entire list and go from there. Notice no beverages except milk  that's a different list.   And not doing crab puffs this time because man-child the younger went veget

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HerNameIsBuffy

I only dump stuff here because I don't like therapists

Been in a weird place in my head lately...I've been fine with having no real friends irl for ages...it was actually really freeing when I realized I didn't have to put up with all the superficial crap I hate to hang out with people who I didn't like all that much anyway.  But lately I've been thinking about people who used to mean a lot to me.  Friends I loved at one point. Some of them I think about and wonder why I don't miss them.  I should - they didn't do anything wrong...I just drifte

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HerNameIsBuffy

So when I get hit by that bus...

My youngest man-child is a legal adult, yet not old enough to fully appreciate how awesome I am so i would like a favor in case I get hit by the proverbial bus* before he has an epiphany of how very lucky he was to have me for a mom. *such a stupid euphemism...like I'm busy dodging busses.  I rarely even see them. Someone form a committee to send him annoyingly frequent messages reminding him I learned to cook tofu for him.  No one else here eats it but yet here I am after finding yet

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HerNameIsBuffy

Life update...

The only thing wrong with life atm is not being able to keep FJ open in my head in some kind of virtual browser.  Miss you guys!  So almost a month into the new gig... after a much needed (modified) from my old circle of hell... Although there is some stupid sports thing called the World Series that someone's pact with the devil got the Cubs into which prompted my dogs to ask me to post this for them... and I had a weird dream which made me look up sappy q

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HerNameIsBuffy

This just happened....

Was just out with one of the man-boys - he was driving,. As we pass a neighbors house I say, "Oh, cute cat!" In response to something similar to this* His reply?  "You know that's not a real cat, right?"   Not snarky - tone was rather concerned for my well being. i didn't meet him last Tuesday.  I've been his mother since I pushed his giant head into the world about 20 years ago but he questions whether I know the difference between real cats (which we have had his entire life) an

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HerNameIsBuffy

Genius!

This is brilliant!  How have I never thought of this! although you know my dumb ass will put clean clothes on top and have to re-wash. and dorky as it is this... made me think of the Nauglers.  I've got no business complaining about having to clean my house.

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HerNameIsBuffy

Kitty manicure time...

Two of the kitties were due for a mani-pedi today.   This was Griffin's response - as always. and Sham-Wow's - as always if he'd just cooperate we'd be done by now.  And I wouldn't have a cat scratch dead center in my top pinky knuckle which hurts way more than you'd think. .  Why won't he just...  

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HerNameIsBuffy

Yes, I'm looking down my nose at you...

But don't take it personally...I just got my first pair of bifocals and I'm just trying to see the screen.   between my normal rbf and fairly aloof demeanor this haughty pose to try and see is not going to help my rep and a cuddle bunny. i put it off way too long and I'm enjoying my new found clarity of vision except in the mirror.  My natural 20:100 and 20:200 blur takes years off my face and being able to see put them right back. i long for the days where life was boring ...I mi

HerNameIsBuffy

HerNameIsBuffy

Happy update

I love you guys and miss FJ!  Sleep and kidney stones alternately took up all of Sunday and new job started yesterday so I've been scarce but wanted to pop in and say how well my son is doing.  You wouldn't know what he went through if you saw him...walking around without pain and back eating horribly spicy foods and anxious to get back to work and school.   Throughout the week that passage from Beverly Cleary's YA book Fifteen kept coming back to me, where she said Stan looked pale under h

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HerNameIsBuffy

The small and not so small stuff...

I'm okay in a crisis.  What will break me immediately is the small stuff. I'm sure it goes without saying that last week nothing mattered to me except my son's medical crisis.  Heck I let my daughter borrow ,u car for two days and forgot about it which ...if you knew how attached I am to my car you'd know how significant that is. mini-Buffy is another one who deserves not only a diamond house but her own private island filled with animals and happiness ...she was so amazing I don't kno

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HerNameIsBuffy

Hey Life,,,Back Off!

Last Sunday morning minutes after waking up I brought one of my sons to ER. One ruptured appendix, torn colon, major abdominal abscess, case of severe peritonitis, paralytic ileus/non-mechanical obstruction of the small bowel*, and week of abject fear later we're finally home. This is why crazy high pain tolerance is scary.  Because he felt nothing until some flu like symptoms hours before...until all the pain he didn't feel before came home with a vengeance. Young adult nothing..

HerNameIsBuffy

HerNameIsBuffy

True story...sad or funny? You decide...

Some overheard at work in meme form between coworker (we'll call him Luke*), me, and The Powers That Be (we'll call them Satan.) *Names changed to protect the innocent Luke to me: What I said: What I thought: Coworker to Satan: Satan to coworker: Coworker tells me he's made yet another plea for them to make me stay... I explain that contrary to popular belief no matter what they felt I wouldn't be required to stay.  There is no legal indenture ap

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HerNameIsBuffy

I wish I could do stuff like this...

I know I can't - I'm a grown up and burning bridges in my industry would be suicide yada yada...but I saw this and so wish I was the kind of person who could do this... Four days left before my new adventure begins!  Yay!   So I probably shouldn't print this out huge on the plotter and cover my door on my last day.... But maybe this one - 8x10 on the server cabinet?   Seriously - I may do the last one there because the network guys will find it funny and I'm gonna miss

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HerNameIsBuffy

Smiling and RBF...

I am one of those women always being told to smile.  I have resting bitch face and so even when I'm perfectly content I apparently look somewhat annoyed.  Or focused.  Or stop looking at my face if you don't like it... This has been going on since I was a child.  I never understood it.  I'd be happily engrossed in a book, playing dolls, or color-forms and someone would tell me to smile because I'm so much prettier when I do.   Absolutely no difference between that and sitting behind a bank

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